Archive for October, 2011

24
Oct
11

Dating at 25

So here it is. I have a boyfriend well somewhat. He and I are “together” but he works way more than I do and we really don’t ever get to see each other and talking over text will only work for so long. We have known each other for over a year but because we are so busy I rarely get to talk to him about anything of any importance. We talk about stupid things like work and of course how we want to see each other more but that’s about it.

He came over this weekend and we hung out for a little while before he went to work and then who knows when I will see him again. He always says that I am gorgeous and amazing but I fully expect him to just leave one day. I know that’s not fair to put that on him but sometimes it seems to good to be true.

I do really want to get to know him and I want things to work but for some reason I want to run at the same time. I am not sure why I get this way but I guess its probably because its easier to run than make things work. What scares me is that I, for the most part, am one who could careless if I see a guy or talk to a guy for any reason but with this one I currently wish that I could see him for more than two hours at a time and wish that we could talk more about things other than just stupidity. It’s almost like I freak myself out about stuff so much that I run rather than risk getting hurt.

What’s not to like about this guy? He’s smart, funny, sweet, attractive, has a great job, drives an awesome car, thinks I’m amazing and gorgeous. WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF?

11
Oct
11

Tuesday Stuff

So here we are on another beautiful Tuesday and what am I doing you may ask. I am doing what I am always doing which is working another log stressful day filled with customers, boss rants, random inappropriate text messages and more phone calls and emails that anyone should have to deal with on a daily basis.

While dealing with all my crazy work stuff there is always school and my attempt at having some sort of a social life outside of my insane co-workers. This is all while being almost 25 and trying to figure out what I want to do as far as a career, school, living situation, relationship situation (yes I call it a situation and if you follow my blog you will see why it is a situation), and everything else that goes along with being mid-twenties.

11
Oct
11

Having a big person job

While more often than not I like what I do for a living, there are times like now where I just want to throw in the towel and get a job that does not involve dealing with insane customers. I understand that most jobs deal with the public or customers in some fashion but sometimes I am just not in the mood to be the person in charge who has to deal with the complaints and screaming that comes with them not getting exactly what they want.

There are times that I sit and think what would my life be like if I was to just work at a place where i have no authority and can simple go in and do my job and leave it at the door when I go home. There are many nights where I just want to shut my phone and email off and be left alone.

Enough with my rant. It really is a gorgeous day and is thankfully moving along rather quickly. Thinking that I want to go home and do some baking.